This day had been one hell of a r
ollercoaster ride. I can say that I've been pretty much my second self again: the insane bitch. Gawd. I laughed so hard and talked shit a lot today. Grabe.
Guess wot? Kanina nung Chemistry time nasa AVR kami. Biglang pinataas ni Danilo yung braso ko, tapos nilagay niya yung isang rubber band. Hell no. It might just be a rubber band. A plain and ordinary rubber band. But since it came from Dan Longno? i consider it priceless. I think I'll keep it for awhile.
Nasa kalagitnaan kami ng discussion about subordinates. I suppose it was about that. Haha. I forgot. Biglang sinabi ni Naomi na, "Mommy! Si JJ!!". And yes, there he is, walking down the corridor and has just walked past our seat on our room. Naomi suggested putting up a note on my post-it tapos ibibigay niya or i-wewave niya kapag dumaan si JJ. But I changed plans. I wrote: "hi JJ".
I walked out of the room and nervously stuck it sa floor ng corridor along our room. I wasn't looking while he passed, coz I don't want to look so obviously desperate like a fucking obsessive bitch. So I didn't see exactly how he stopped when he saw my note. But Eliza said that some guy walking along the corridor stopped and picked up the note on the floor. Surely, she was referring to the note that I wrote. I wonder how JJ felt when he saw my note. Coz I saw him smile a bit as he went his way until I can no longer see him eh. *SUH-WEET*
Grabe. I didn't know I can do that. Na-shock talaga ako sa ginawa ko.
And nakita ko siya three times. Una dun sa canteen before English class. While english class. Tapos after ng Math time. HAH. Nag-CR pa sya. Ang iniisip ko lang, wala siyang dala na bag! Ang bag niya nasa chowking area. Wala na silang class that time. Why the hell would he use the CR at the 2nd floor naman diba? Damn. I'm sure he was looking for me. I'm damn sure of that. Nakita ko siya papaals na san kami ng classrum nun. I was standing behnd the wall between the door and the window nung bigla siyang dumaan. I FUCKING SAW HIM. His eyes was looking towards many directions as if he is looking for somebody. And I saw him. I dunno if he saw me. I guess not. But i don't effin care if he did.
Grabe. Lahat ng bodily reactions that we've discussed sa Psychology?
I'm not over-exaggerating ha? true. I almost felt all of those reactions.
Due to emotional excitement, my sweat glands innervated. Bumilis yung heart rate ko. My respiration disrupted. Not quite sure f my pupils dilated or if it constricted. My mouth dried. My muscles got tense. I had goose pimples. My guts churned. OMFG, my glands. my glands.
I don't get it. I don't understand why the hell am I feeling this way.
I feel like a fucking retard.
You're driving me crazy.
Send him secret notes. Pique his curiosity. You know, use that thing called pen and paper and a few post-it notes. You will drive him mad playing a secretive admirer.